UnCharted Territory

Sunday, October 29, 2006

La Vie en Rose

I always believe we all live life in the best possible way that we know how. Our way may not be the right way or the most ideal way, but it is the only one we know how to follow. We go with what seems right at the moment only to realize, sometimes that we have made a mistake. How then do we go about rectifying the wrongs?

Life would certainly go a much smoother path if only we knew in advance what was right and what was wrong. If only we have the ability to foresee what the consequences of our actions would be. I always tell myself never to regret anything. What has happened cannot be changed. The aftermath of each decision we make remains… and we have no choice but to live with it. The best thing to do next would be to make the most out of it and if possible, learn.

On the other hand, if we can take life with a pinch of salt, if we can look at things in a different and wider perspective, perhaps it would be a lot easier to be happy. We do not have to take ourselves too seriously. We only live once.

We all fall at times. If we can just pick ourselves up, brush our knees off, and stride straight ahead, we might reach a greater height than we ever did before the fall. And even if we do not, at least we are far away from rock bottom. We give ourselves a better shot the next time around.

I do not know the answers. I do not even know the questions. I cannot see what lies ahead and I cannot hear the whispers telling me how I should be doing things. I do what I can right at this moment, keeping my fingers crossed and hoping for the best.

La Vie en Rose.

Saturday, October 28, 2006

Letting go

I should let it go…
I should let the past stay in the past.

Perhaps it is time for me to understand…

We all have a history. Everyone we meet carries a baggage of their own. I must admit the content of that baggage is important. That the past in every one of us makes a contribution towards shaping our future. But… that is where we learn. That is how we mature and become better people.

When does the past stop becoming a contribution and more a hindrance towards what can be?

There are a lot of things I wish I can understand better. But I cannot. Simply because I lack the experience that gives complete and true understanding. That is why I struggle. That is why I hold back. If you cannot understand, how can you believe beyond a reasonable doubt?

I have struggled for so long…
It is time to let go.

We all try our very best. We do what we can at the moment and hope for the best. And if things do not go the way we want them to, we move on. No regrets. Moving on does not make us a bad person. It does not make us a lesser person. We are all merely surviving.

When the past comes back to haunt us and stops us from moving forward… that is when we know it is time to let go of the past. I, too, am merely surviving. I may not truly understand but I do want a better future… with you.

Perhaps, sometimes, we do not need to understand. We just need to have faith.

And I do.